My girlfriend is in a bad way. It’s almost a year since she lost her job, and with no new job in sight and a variety of problems on the medical front this year, she is battling depression.
She is not coping well with it. She has good days and bad days, but mostly the days are bad. A month ago she needed to go into town for the day, but before going out that morning, she left what looked to me like a suicided note. She wrote that she couldn’t keep on going and that life was no longer worth living. I jumped into action, called a helpline, cancelled all my appointments for the day and stayed with her all day. I rang around and I managed to persuade her to see a counsellor. She visited the counsellor a few days later but it was not a productive meeting. She thought the whole thing was rubbish, so that was that.
She is currently out of the country for a few days and I have just received another note from her, this time by email. Entitled “A cry for help”, it lists out how all her plans have turned to dust and how she has turned out to be a total failure in life. She believes that the only woman in my life is my ex, despite the fact that I am now separated from my wife over 4 years, and really, life has moved on. She believes that I will throw her out soon, leaving her on the trash heap. She believes that everyone would have been better off had she never lived.
I found another counsellor for her to talk to, but she is refusing to call her. She has been prescribed anti-depression pills but she refuses to take them. I have given her phone numbers to call, but she thinks it’s all just blah, blah, blah. There is no prospect of a job on the horizon. She is not getting better and the depressive episodes are getting more frequent and more severe each time.
I am deeply worried about her. The way she is going, she is going to do something very stupid soon.
If you are reading this and you have any ideas for bringing her around, let me know.
