Feelings of anger

A few days ago I had a big row with my wife. She told me she was sick of seeing me around the house and that she had grown to dislike me enormously. She doesn’t want me coming over to see the kids after work anymore and she wants to move ahead with a separation as quickly as possible. As far as she is concerned, I am history.

I feel really angry inside. I feel wronged. I feel that there are so many ways I could be nasty to her, that all she has to say is the wrong thing at the wrong time and I will say something back to her that I will regret for a long time to come.

I realize that I badly need to control my emotions over the days and weeks to come. I recognize that it is such times as these in the course of a separation that will dictate whether the split will be amicable or infused with copious dollops of fury, bitterness and hatred.

I must try to see this from her viewpoint and to patch things up as much as possible, but it’s not going to be easy.

No, it is not going to be easy.

~ by amaltheus on April 14, 2009.